Willpower

It's all about having the willpower. I don't, clearly. I had a hard time getting online, because my internet is not working for whatever dumb reason there is out there. Then, my keyboard/track pad is malfunctioning! It's getting worse! It keeps clicking on random links, moving stuff around, highlighting lines of text while I am in the middle of writing so then I delete what I had written! AHH! It's made for hard typing, let me tell you. So, I get online and get distracted - as if that one couldn't be seen a mile off. I do some research, then head to my folder of writing with every intention of writing the next chapter. Really, I was ready to click on Ultimatum! And then I saw this other little file with a different name, and I just had to click on it. So I did, and I found a one-shot that I'd begun writing a bit ago. I liked it enough that I was laughing. I love when you can come back to your old work and like it. Of course, I, like usual, hated what I wrote next. Yes, I worked on this isntead of Ultimatum. It was a nice break, I think. Kind of rejuvinating. I need to finish it yet, there's another scene at least that needs to be played out. Then I can post it. But that's after I let it sit for a while and then come back to it. I definately need to make use of that ploy, otherwise I hate all that I've done. Quite the nice pattern.

Anyways, I did end up writing, just not on Ultimatum. And I didn't even reread it either. *sigh* I'll get there someday. Someday...

Toodles for now!

~BK

Do I dare...

Do I dare to reread my entire fic?? I don't know... everytime I do, I end up losing the momentum to write. But, I get ideas when rereading it! Also, I think I'm a bit intimidated about if the fic has gone into a bad direction. Rereading it could confirm it all! Leaves me scared! Which means that of course it must happen. Then at least I can pick up some threads. Huh. Lucky for all of you, I'm going to go reread the fic. Who knows how long until an update now! But, it should flow more. Which is good... The pro and cons are almost equal, meaning I'm a bit lost on which side is better. Either way, I'm off to go reread!!

Wish me luck!

~BK

Squee!

Squee! Reviews on this chapter are like a floodgate!! I wasn't really expecting too many after last chapter, so this was frigging awesome!! ... Excepting that one lame ass review, which I left up there. Really? Criticism, fine. I'm working on dealing with it, and I certainly know I have issues in writing and following through. This thing has been going on, as in I've been writing it, forever! Or at least what seems like forever. Over a year? I think so, let me go look somewhere. Okay, didn't see anything on mediaminer or fanfiction, so I went and looked at the date of chapter one: Oct. 2007. Over a year, going on two. So sue me if I have trouble remember all that I wrote. And I think my dialogue flows fine. True, I didn't reread this chapter. I don't know why. My only excuse is that it was past one in the morning and the bed was getting all that much more inviting. So I've been writing this for over a year and have done no major editing. If I edited it - I would delete a shitload, add a shitload, and fix a shitload. Nuff said. But if you're going to leave a stupid review like that, at least have the balls to leave your name. That's pathetic, that you have to hide behind anonymity to leave a review like that.

Back to the awesome reivews!! Yeah!! I'm stoked! Thank you, everyone!! Makes me want to write the next chapter, but sadly I have a French essay due at midnight, so that comes first. It shouldn't take me too long to write it, so on to this hopefully rather quickly.

Nobody commented on Kuwabara. I would have thought that would get a review or two. The man wasn't always completely for what they were doing, and now he seems to be completely dissuaded with his best friend, his connection to Spirit World. What shall occur with that? And Yusuke? Yusuke is in a very hard place right now. He had to choose someone, and he did it. Of course I made it against popular choice :D, but some sympathy for his choice?? I'll have to work on that next time. And this time, just a little bit, Kagome did walk into Naraku's grasp. Just a little, even though she was still kind of thrown. And Hiei! Goodness, the man is supposed to be acting OCC here. I thought I got that across, but I'll definately have to work on it.

That's it for now. I'm experiencing this huge urge to go play Lego Starwars right now, but I shall resist!! I have work to do.

So, tty'all-l!
~BK

Damn Reviews

I don't feel like finishing Ultimatum. How crappy is that? I want to want to finish. :( I think it's because of the reviews. They aren't making me happy. I read enough author blogs to know you have to develop a thick skin to be published, so I know that it needs to happy. But damn, it makes me sad. What can be said of them, of published authors receiving shit reviews, is that they at least already have a finished product. It was good enough in the first place to be published. Not so with fanfiction, it's just not the same thing.

Thank you to all who left me happy reviews, particularly on this last chappy. For you I write this next chapter while I am personally ready to move on the next project. Next time, I just need to write the whole thing much faster.

~BK

PS I'm off to write right now, so crossed fingers!!

News

So, nothing new. As of last count, three total reviews. I'm happy for them, thank you to the three! But, it still leaves me filling a bit sad that the number is down so much. I'll do my best to just ignore it and not analyze it. Also, started a new blog, and so far have posted nothing. I'm such a bum. Also written nothing new. I'm not sure where to go with this next chapter. Dang. I'm not liking Ultimatum as much right now. How sad... :(

~BK

Hmm

So, I posted but I've gotten no reviews yet... Hm... Is this a sign that the chapter sucked? Cause I didn't think it did... Maybe moved a bit fast, but suck, no... I'm a wee bit sad now. Over 60 regards on each site, but no comments. Damn. I would like to shrivel up as an author. Not an empowering moment!

~BK

An Update

I'm tired, but I posted. There! There's hardly any satisfaction in it because it's so late!!! But, it's a longer chapter. I edited the last bit quite a bit, but I like it all, even where it's heading. :D I originally wanted to add quite a bit more to the chapter, but damn I just wanted to post. You guys are used to smaller chapters. It's nothing new. Now, hopefully, some reviews will follow. Tomorrow promises to be a busy day, otherwise I'd probably write. You know, my spring break isn't as free as I would have liked it. :( I guess almost 12 hours of sleep isn't really conducive to getting shit done in the day. Dang. :)

Night all!
BK

There

So I wrote some, but the chapter wasn't finished, but I was debating posting anyways with what I had, then I couldn't get the internet, so I didn't. I was going to write now before I found out I have a test in two days of which I'm very not prepared for at all. So, there, that's the situation. The chapter is now over 3K and counting. The scene is not done and needs work. I'm at a standstill since there are so many different possiblities here. I'll work on it when I can.

BK